I use words that come out of my mouth
To convince myself it’s not true.
To convince others it’s not true.
They’re looking
Judging
Patronizing
Thinking their thoughts as if they were my own

I’m just overthinking
That’s what I tell myself
No one is looking
Judging
Patronizing
I’m sure they don’t have a thought in their head about me.
But how couldn’t they?
My head is filled to the rim with flares of thoughts and judgement,
It’s nearly overflowing, but why wouldn’t theirs?
It’s exhausting and I’m tired of it.